Alexa Ferrer Wednesday Post (i was absent wednesday)

Even only 20 pages into the reading, I love it. I usually don’t love a book until after I have read it like in the case of Atlas Shrugged. The journey was long and painful and it was after reading it that I realized I loved it. I don’t know what makes The Sense of an Ending different; maybe it’s easier and shorter or maybe it’s because things are clicking much faster than other readings in this class have clicked and I’m making many correlations to other readings from this year.

I find Adrian fascinating, like most of my classmates. I think the reason I find him so fascinating is because I am too much like the narrator therefore I envy Adrian and wish I could be more like him, because after reading Dostoyevsky one could conclude that Adrian is a very intelligent boy. He accepts most things people refute and actually knows how to listen. I envy his ability to remain quiet the most. Tony, Alex, and Colin often become very opinionated about certain matters and the fact that Adrian remains silent makes him the most mature and wisest one. He is not staying quiet out of ignorance, he is doing what Dostoyevsky struggled so much in doing and remaining sane: balancing out all sides. In the event that Adrian does open his mouth to speak, everything he has said thus far is of value and substance, although it is usually cited from people he has read about which is still equally impressive. It makes me jealous that he knows so much and can cite all these philosophers and make his educated friends feel lower than him just in his gracefulness and eloquence.

The narrator keeps going back to the idea that teenagers are too opinionated and everything will make sense with age. I wonder if he will ever reach that point or if it will just go on and on waiting to reach that ending. The title of the book leads me to believe whatever it is he is searching for will never fully be achieved and he will either have to accept it and become like Adrian or drive himself crazy much like Dostoyevsky did with all his knowledge.